Thank you, thank you, thank you. To everyone who took a moment out of their day to offer me words of sympathy and encouragement.
It is simply amazing to me that I have the support of so many wonderful women - most of whom I've never met. It means more than I can say.
I am now a member of a club that I supported but hoped never to join. The membership requirement is one of the most heartwrenching experiences a woman can have. I know I have a lot of company there. And that is sad.
For those of you who've asked, I'm doing pretty well. I'm almost back to normal physically. Emotionally...it comes and goes. Sometimes it's difficult to see pregnant women, especially at the park. I can't help remembering being pregnant with Sage while spending hours at the park with Sawyer, pushing him in a swing.
I think about how that should be me again. But it's not. And I'm slowly accepting it.
I'm reminded every day how lucky I am to have two healthy, beautiful children. Maybe I'm greedy for asking for just one more.
We don't know whether we'll try again.
Either way, I'll be okay.
My ailing Butternut - [image: the sick house] Sharing my bed with the other kid this week.
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